Internal Struggle of Finding Greater Purpose in My Business

Right now I'm finding lots of joys and challenges that get me really excited in my Maskcara business. With really big goals, I've thought a lot about how to recruit other women to join me and how to reach out and connect with x amount of women. 

As I was flipping through my scriptures, thinking about the enabling power of the atonement, grace, and my favorite scripture...

"If men come unto me, I will show unto them their weakness. I give unto them weakness that they may be humble; and my grace sufficient for all men that humble themselves before me; for if they humble themselves before me, and have faith in me, then will I make weak things become strong unto them" - Ether 12:27

I know I can't reach my goals alone. I also know that if they were easy for me to accomplish, I wouldn't be able to reach outward & humble myself to realize I can't do things on my own. I can only do it with the strength of Christ. 

Now, here's the internal struggle. Christ doesn't care if I reach a certain rank in my company. Or make a certain sales goal. Christ cares about me and what I want to achieve. But my value doesn't come from my success in this. He won't care if I'm ever a top leader or top earner, but he will help me reach my goals if they prepare me spiritually for the kingdom of Heaven. He will help me reach my goals if they serve His children. 

Sometimes I wrestle with the purpose of my "temporal" goals and businesses. I've been taught my whole life it seems that the mom stays home with the kids and the dad works. So sometimes I'm like why am I even pursuing a business I don't have to do financially. What is my purpose for doing these businesses? How does it fit into the grander scheme of things?

As I have studied this out in my mind, I have found that there is purpose! And there will always be purpose as long as I continue this endeavor with intention.

- Doing this for me, fills my cup and allows me to feel fulfilled, challenged and enjoy the talents that I have to cultivate creativity and serve others. 

- It allows me to serve women who need to be told their beautiful, who want a little extra income for Christmas or vacation, who need the confidence that comes from learning new things and sharing them successfully, who are looking for the same challenge and growth that I am.

- I'm a home-body... with friends all over the world. This pushes me to build new friendships. I have met people that I never would've talked to otherwise. People who are positively impacting my life, every day.

- Just as I was brought in and seen my life change. Others have come into the group and it has been something meaningful to them as well. 

I love Maskcara, and it's so fun. It gives me the opportunity to use business strategies, marketing, branding, learn and share make up, learn and share business. All the things I nerd out over. But, it's also given me greater purpose.

The people it will impact along the way will be great. Even if they never sell the make up, even if they never buy the make up. It might make a difference to that one color match who had never been told she's beautiful.

As I pray for strength to reach my goals, I have to remember it's NOT for the title. It's for the level of impact and connections I will have made when I get to that point. 

My purpose will change along the way. The impacts that will be made, might never even be seen by me. But I know that if I do this with the Lord, it's going to change my life and many others along the way.

My why is stated 100 ways in this post. But most simply,

It is the connection to people that I need in my life. The strength that comes from my tribe of women who have joined me and will rally with me. And the strength and support that I can offer in return.

The example I am to my children, that they can do whatever they want. They can be amazing parents, they can start businesses, they can go to school for 6 years, or never. They can do anything and everything they want, and they will grow up watching me do just that & loving them first and foremost. 

And it's given me a kinder heart. In a world where we as women are so insecure of each other, being a part of something that consciously makes me think about the beauty in other women and TELLING them about what I see... it is good for my soul.